Should I text him?

My boyfriend broke up with me the day of quarantine. Basically I found out I was played and he let some of his feelings get the best of him.

He is currently depressed and I have reached out twice. 1) because a similar friend didn’t know what to do and 2) because it felt right to establish that I want to be friends and I am here for him. Both conversations were polite but he was very short.

I had no clue he was feeling this way. And I would assume he already has a new girlfriend. I still have the same feelings for him despite how much I have pondered on what was right and wrong. I have grown and bettered myself. But he said he wasn’t ready to be friends when he is the one who broke my heart and moved on.

I want to text him how I feel. I too have clinical depression with out meds or therapy because I learned to manage. But bottling up these emotions has taken a huge toll on me for past 2 1/2 months. I want to be his friend at the very least because seeing him that way breaks my heart. But I still want more with him in the future again. I can’t speak to my friends about this because they are also his friends and seem to like him more. So I’ve been hiding how I felt for so long.

Should I text him? Should I be fair to myself and cause a probable fight or ruin being his friend. Or continue this journey alone by myself in quarantine.