I need some advice please

I’ve been with my boyfriend since I was 18, I’m now 24, and he’s about to turn 25. Ive always been upfront and clear about the fact that I’m quite traditional, in wanting marriage and children etc. He’s been my only boyfriend as I wanted to wait until I was truly in love. He’s always been on the same page, really sure that this is the life he wants too.

We’ve experienced 5 miscarriages together, we’ve lived together for 5 years. Both graduated University, got graduate jobs, and life is pretty good.

The thing is, I’ve always dreamt of getting married, which he knew from the beginning, and he says it’ll happen, but there’s been no signs. He tells me it’ll happen one day, but he’s been saying that for years now. I’ve even asked him if he sees us being married by the time I’m 30, and he said ‘more than likely, yes’. We would have been together for 12 years by then, and he couldn’t even give me a definitive yes. I can’t tell if I’m being too sensitive, but I just feel a bit sad about it. I feel like everyone around me is moving in with their lives, getting married, having children. But I feel stuck, with 5 miscarriages behind us and no signs of marriage anytime soon.

Am I being too sensitive? I’ve had some people close to us say ‘it’ll happen when he’s ready’ and others just can’t understand why it hasn’t happened. Out of our friends we’re the couple people come too for advice, the ones that have gotten through every rainy day, and are still just as happy and in love.

But the lack of proposal is really affecting me. I just can’t help but feel if he’s not ready now after nearly 6 years, he never will be? Would that be a dealbreaker for you? I don’t want to lose the man I’m in love with, but then why should I give up on something I’ve always wanted, and been so clear about from the start. I think I would cope better if he told me he didn’t want to get married, but he doesn’t, he just keeps saying it’ll happen one day. He wants us to try for children, but I think as much as I want them too, I’m going to put a pause on it because of how I’m feeling about this.