SO makes me feel bad about body sometimes...

I know this is kind of shallow to even care about but it just gets to me sometimes and I have to get it out. So I’m a small girl but I have a nice ass, I’ve always been really confident about it and gotten tons of compliments and guys obsessed with it. I have small tits and other things I don’t like about my body so I’m like at least I have a nice ass. Lol.

Well my bf makes comments sometimes like “do you want ice cream? You need to get that ass bigger” or yesterday we were taking a walk and I wasn’t wearing very tight pants and he put his hand in my back pocket and quietly said “your ass doesn’t even fill out your jeans” and laughed then quickly changed the subject as if he didn’t mean to say it out loud. I don’t think he means to make me feel bad, but he does.

And I think this all bothers me extra because years ago when we first got together he use to watch twerking videos right in front of me and comment on the girls out loud saying “damnn” and stuff. I put a stop to that. I chalked it down to him being single for so long and just not knowing how to treat a girlfriend in that regard. And I even after that, one time after we had gone a while without having sex (him turning me down) I had tried to have sex with him and he said he didn’t feel like it, he then went into the bedroom and got on his phone and I went in there and I’m like “are you ok?” And he’s like yeah. So I left the room then later came back in because I knew something was fishy and I looked at his phone and he was watching twerking videos. I explained how it was hurtful and he seemed to understand. It’s like I just can’t really get over that sometimes.

And now his comments today years later still make me feel bad. Like I don’t want to change myself for him. I could probably go to the gym and work for an even bigger ass and I could gain weight, but I don’t want to. I feel good with how I am and I already get enough unwanted stares from strangers. And I feel he should just be satisfied with my natural ass and it upsets me that I feel that after all those videos he’s watched he has unrealistic expectations. He makes me feel good about my thighs at least, he’s always talking about my thighs 🙄 Again I feel silly talking about this but does anyone have any advice?