Breastfeeding

I feel like a horrible mom. I decided to stop breastfeeding. My LO is 10 1/2 weeks old. I’ve been really stressed working and have tried everything to try to produce milk. Nothing works. We’re down to breastfeeding twice a day. Also my nipples are extremely sensitive so I’m always in pain when my LO latches (I have flat nipples which really doesn’t help). I have tried nipple creams and shields.

I always see moms shaming women who don’t breastfeed. They say breastfed kids are smarter than ones that aren’t breastfed. Etc etc.

Sorry if my English sucks, I’m trying.

I feel extremely horrible. I cry every night. I feel like crap whenever I feed him formula and look at his little face. Sometimes I wonder if I deserve this little guy. I really hate myself.