Petrified of miscarrying

So this is my second pregnancy.

I unfortunately miscarried back in November with my first pregnancy at 11 weeks and was completely heartbroken. My partner and I had been trying for over 2 years to finally fall pregnant and lose the baby, I know it’s very common but all I could thing was why me, why us.

We gave it time and I have fallen pregnant again and am currently 12 weeks, I have my first scan on the 18th and I’m absolutely petrified to go, firstly because of covid-19 I have to go alone and experience this on my own without my partner being able to see our first baby, secondly because I am so petrified of going in and seeing an empty space again on that screen and being alone for that. I then have to be strong by myself.

I’m trying to stay as calm and positive as possible and am praying baby is in there healthy and well.

I’ve had a lot of symptoms including a lot of nausea and morning sickness which has been draining, I know is a good sign but you just never know.

Anyone else been for their first scan during this pandemic and got advise? Is it as scary as I’m imagining?