I said something horrible today

my daughter was being so frustrating screaming and crying because she didn’t want to go pee even though she was shaking from holding it in claiming she was just cold. she had been doing it all day. i was so frustrated i said what’s wrong with you??? are you stupid?? something must be wrong with you? i wish i never had a kid. i wish i never had a kid.

i’m laying here now at night literally wanting to self harm because i hate myself so much i can’t believe i said that to my innocent child. i’m a horrible mother. she’s better off without me