Need a little advise/help. Trigger warning.

Just a trigger warning for rape..

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I think my husband raped me.. we were both drunk, but not like blackout drunk. He and I started having sex and it was fine.. we usually get rough and he started choking me which was fine. Then he put his hand over my mouth and nose and told me to struggle. My safe "word" when I am unable to talk is going limp.. he knows this. Well, I said no and he didn't stop. I went limp and even started crying and he still didn't stop. He only stopped when I was finally able to tell him that I was hurting physically. I don't know how I am supposed to feel about this. Please any advice or help to deal with this moving forward? We are both about to sleep away the booze and I'm not sure what to do when I wake up..