my life has been freaking awful. i’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for 3 years and i’m only 15 i hate my body and my mind. i try to impress people and i mess up then i get into trouble. i’m so dumb sometimes and i don’t think and my parents get mad and i’m sensitive so i just cry god i cry all the time. the only time i’m happy is when i have a boy to talk to and it hurts when they leave my dad is not in my life he’s more of a part time dad but my moms remarried. i’ve tried to kill myself 5 times and every time has failed and i have been getting help but my doctors not on call 24/7 so here’s where i go. idk tonight just has thoughts going through my head i shouldn’t be thinking.