It’s so hard!!! So hard i just want to cry and scream. It is the topic that causes us to be upset at one another, how can something that u really want in life take over like this? Mentally physically and emotionally drains you to the end. It’s the one thing i have always wanted. Wanted for us both! It’s been 3 long years and i honestly don’t know what to do anymore..... it has taken over my happiness. I miss my old self. At what point do you just stop? Do we stop trying? Do we keep trying? I don’t know it is so hard to be in this situation. Sorry just needed to vent on here....