Trigger warning cptsd

I was recently diagnosed with complex post traumatic stress disorder. I see my doctor tomorrow to start my medication of antidepressants and then antipsychotics.

I’m currently feeling like I’m dissociating so if this reads terribly please forgive me. I’m really struggling with feeling so alone and that I can’t ever fully explain myself enough and that no one can really get it.

I was diagnosed alongside with anxiety, ed, substance abuse and bpd traits. My mother had bpd. So I relate to some aspects but not enough to be diagnosed.

My best friend has bpd and when I told her about my mental health she was pretty convinced that I had bpd too. I didn’t really feel like I did. And I didn’t obviously. But when I told her my diagnosis she sent me a large message I’ll insert. It really broke my heart and I haven’t responded.

I like to think it comes from a nice place with good intentions. But I honestly feel so invalided in my mental health

Also I hadn’t done any drugs that she’s talking about since last year. And having and seeing men I hadn’t done for two months. Because my dissociating got really intense and I can barely hold conversations in person