I don’t know why I can’t squirt

I was having good sex a while ago a few minutes ago and I tried to squirt during missionary and doggy style I felt like I had to pee I have heard to try to push like your going to pee I felt like something was going to come out but couldn’t with every stroke I felt like I couldn’t hold it and it was just going to come out but couldn’t I ordered a glass dildo because they say I could maybe try to practice squirting with that it’s my first glass toy I will see if I like it they say they feel good I been depressed because my husband hasn’t eaten my out in a long time over a year he only ate me out like twice in our relationship evendow it feels really good when we do it like today it felt really good but I’m also disappointed ☹️ because I wish I could squirt I sometimes feel the feeling but can’t