Venting

I really have to vent even though this happened a year ago it’s still something I constantly think about it cause it was sort of life changing. So I have never had a happy family my mother is a drug addict and my dad wasn’t really there but I reunited with him and my siblings (2 sisters and 1 brother) when I was 16. I use to love my family so much even though it was nowhere near perfect I was just happy to have a family together or not. Well my sisters mother never liked me because I’m the outcome from my father’s affair and this woman has always tried her best to make my sisters not like me either so they wouldn’t want anything to do with me. My older sister had a baby last year and little after she was born there was a rumor made about me that I slept with her baby father for money and food, I would never do that in my life plus to add to the fact that I despise this guy cause he’s hurt my sister and others in my family so many times, My whole family believed this rumor and I would get death threats and my father even took me to get legally disowned my mother wasn’t really there cause at this time she disappeared and abandoned me for drugs I haven’t seen her since but I’m legally an orphan luckily I had another family that has almost adopted me in the past take me in. I was called out of my name all over social media by my family, the people I really cared for and loved the most and all I ever wanted was a relationship with. Eventually months later my sisters and father started talking to me again and they said they never believed it but I know that’s a lie cause they obviously told there friends and there friends would constantly hit me up asking me what does it take to get in bed with me. But they all apologized to me and I explained how it really hurt me now we talk and they say they love me but I can never believe that and it still hurts till this day I don’t say anything but they act like it was nothing like it never happened I’m just a lot more distant. I still think to myself what did I do to deserve all of that all I wanted was a family to love me like I love them and I feel like to them it’s not that big of a deal then they think but I’m emotionally traumatized. I think about this every day and I can’t stop no matter how hard I try to forget it.