Anger and sadness

I'm feeling gypped that I wont be able to get any testing, ultrasounds or even hear my babys heartbeat until I'm in my second trimester. I am over the moon that I'm having my 3rd child but I feel so depressed that I dont get to know if my baby is okay until I'm about 15 weeks or more if it has to be rescheduled. I just needed to vent. Thank you.

And yes I'm aware there is a pandemic going on, but that doesn't stop the feelings of fear, stress and anxiety of carrying a baby and not knowing if everything is okay.