Body Dysmorphia

So I don’t know if this is the correct term or if I have the opposite of this? I just want to create this post to explain how I feel and see if it’s relatable at all...

So normally, when I see myself I think I am very average and normal and sometimes I even feel beautiful. For the most part I at least feel comfortable with who I am...

But when someone takes a picture of me I literally go down a rabbit hole of depression and confusion and just unease with who I am...

I feel like I don’t know how I truly look to anyone outside of my own head and when I get that way I hate being in public because I feel like people perceive me as ugly ...

I don’t mean to sound like such a victim or something, but I just need some kind of answers...

Why do I look so ugly and different in pictures?