I was racist

I want to embarrassingly admit that I was a racist without even knowing. In other cases I’ve said “all lives matter” without truly understanding the meaning behind the BLM movement. I now understand.

I also have said “I see no color” not truly understanding what my words meant. It came from a good place, I was trying to say I don’t judge based off skin color and will love and be friends with anyone but I now know it is important to acknowledge the oppression African Americans face daily and have for years.

I’ve been silent (even though saddened) because it didn’t directly affect me and that is extremely wrong.

I am Hispanic so I am a minority but nowhere near the same way and I understand that now.

I’ve ignored racial comments from the older generation in laws and my family too because I would just think “it’s their generation” and ignored them. I thought me not thinking the same was enough. I now know that is NOT enough. And if ANYone says anything remotely inappropriate in front of my daughter I will correct them and embarrass them in front of her.

My heart is hurting, I want justice, I want peace, I want this to never happen again. I want to be better so I can teach my daughter (4 months) better.

I did not grasp the privileged mindset I had.

I now understand that I’ll never understand. But acknowledging my wrong is a step in the right direction and hope everyone could do the same.

& hope this will open someone’s eyes like it did mine