Happy & thankful 🥰

I just wanted to come on here and express how I feel!!! I recently came across an old notebook where I used to write down everything I felt mostly did when I was drunk I can’t believe my life then changed so much to what it is now !! but to anyone out there who’s struggling to let go or find someone or even just live or just to feel hopeful for whatever reason then I hope u find some kind of hopefulness in this

I use to be in what I thought was a “relationship” for 3 years constant fighting lying and him ghosting me and everything basically treating me like a friends with benefits when I thought it was deeper then that ! I was always heart broken! Id be lying if I said this is the reason I tuned to alcohol but in reality the alcoholism was still there only then I started drinking heavily EVERY SINGLE DAY! Even on days where I said I wasn’t gonna drink I would end up driving to the store and buying alcohol even when i had my last 20 dollar bill I’d buy myself a vodka bottle my little sisters would get so upset with me I didn’t see the problem till now, last year I met this guys we are so different I’m Mexican he’s Dominican we met at a bar at first it was just a little fling to forget how much I missed the old guy and also to feel liked well that ended up being the best thing I ever did even if it started as a hook up we ended up really liking each other we started dating and and became super serious he treats me like a real girlfriend he’s so good to me!!! He was what I always prayed for in a man and thanks to him I got my little blessing who in my eyes saved me from a world of sadness and alcoholism when I found out I was pregnant I was scared because i thought I wasn’t going to be able to stop drinking but it was actually so easy !!! I now see my life differently! Just when I thought I was gonna end up to be a lonely alcoholic, I’m now gonna be a mother to beautiful baby boy with a man I love with all my heart and I know he loves me the same in return I am so happy I could write more but who’s even gonna read all of this right well if u did thank you I hope this post comes across someone who feels how I once felt! Gods timing is always better then anything else it comes just keeps holing on ! I am beyond thankful and happy with how everything is going now and as for drinking in the future yes I still will have a few drinks why lie BUT. I will not use that as a coping mechanism or just for an I’m bored activity! I now will have a son who will need my full attention and to be honest i don’t even crave to drink if anything I’ve realized how annoying some drunk people can be! I’m just so happy my heart can explode I’ve gone through so much sadness in my life where I feel like this is what I’ve been waiting for this whole time ! But anyway thank you of u read this far(: