I became the women I always said I would never become...

Hello ladies. I don’t know what’s the point of this... but maybe some sort of venting. Asking for advise? Making sure it’s normal. I don’t know...

Pre-baby I was such a hardworking, go get it woman. I was a shining star in my company and a person with so much potential (my managers love me and would tell me this at all times). My career was EXTREMELY important to me, I studied so hard to get my bachelors and masters in engineering.

After baby I feel all that is gone. I only want to be with her. I spend all day with her. I’m not tired, I barely let anyone help. I just want to be with her everyday. I enjoy it. I love being a mom. With this pandemic I love being with her all the time, I don’t miss going out, and I don’t want anyone doing the stuff i can do for her. I’m only continuing to work because I want to give her a certain type of life, we could survive with just my husbands salary but I want to give her the extra. I don’t care much about my career anymore. I’ve lost my essence.

Is this ok? Is this normal? Should I try to gain my essence back even if I don’t really want to? I’m so confused and sad just thinking about going back to work.

Thanks for reading.

Note: I’m not saying in any way or form that SAHM is bad or anything like that (kudos to you ladies). I’m just saying I never thought this would be a fit for me.