fear of pregnancy

before i start this i just want to say - you don’t have to tell me how stupid this sounds, because trust me, i already know

i am a 17 year old virgin. i have a boyfriend and although we have made out before, we have never had sex and we’ve never even taken our clothes off

however, i have been so scared every month that i am pregnant

i have spent so many hours just googling if you can get pregnant through your clothes (even though my boyfriend has never finished while we were doing anything) and even though every website says NO, i still find myself worrying about it. i have anxiety, i have my whole life, and i find it hard to rationalize my thoughts even when i worry about impossible things or things that just don’t make sense

i am constantly paranoid about my stomach. it’s hard to explain exactly, but i think i just feel so hyper-aware of it sometimes. anytime i feel a fullness in my stomach or a random pain in my uterus or anywhere else it triggers so much worry of pregnancy. anytime i have any symptoms like constipation, bloating, or anything similar i worry that these are just signs of pregnancy. i can tell myself all i want that it’s impossible and so so stupid because like i said i am literally a virgin, but it’s so hard to calm myself down and rationalize it sometimes.

i just want to know what i can do to stop this. my boyfriend and my best friend are the only ones who know about this fear and they’ve helped me out a lot but they worry about me. i can’t keep running to them every time i freak out because there’s only so much they can say to me and they’ve really already said it all.

what kind of person do i talk to about this? a therapist? someone knowledgeable in sex ed? i’m just not sure what to do...

edit: i am currently on the waiting list to see a therapist and i will bring up this fear....i think it could possibly be ocd so we will see what she says. thank you to everyone who has left such kind and understanding comments ♥️