We broke up, but are still trying to be friends

We have been together for almost 4 years. He was my absolute bestest friend in the whole world. I loved him so much.

But there’s thing that I don’t think I can forgive, I want to forgive him. We thought about couples therapy but I’m not sure if I want to do that at 21.

We planned such a good summer, our travel plans got cancelled so we were gonna do road trips. We just recently went camping too and it was amazing.

We want to stay friends. He still wants me to come with him out to the patio with him and his works friends bc they invited us. I want to go bc I lovvvee meeting new people and bc of covid, I haven’t been able to interact with my university circle of friends much.

I have no friends. I’m scared to be lonely.