Depression

Hi, so I don't usually post on here but I have no where else I wanted to just openly share this. No one needs to respond to this I'mjust venting. I've been have anxiety and depression these past few weeks. I have my days of just being entirely depressed from many factors and nothing all at once. I talk to my boyfriend and he does not know what to do. I tell him I just want us to talk or be in each others presence since recently we got into an argument about communication. And bottom line is I just want to talk normally and not be alone ,but he tells me he has nothing to say to me and just leaves the conversation like that. I feel really alone and depressed right now. I feel lost. I used to self harm alot when I got like this but I've been trying really hard to stray away from it. It feels like its getting more difficult to return to my bad habits. Thank you for letting me vent. I rarely express myself, and I needed this. Thank you.