Sexual assault warning ! + advice needed

Ashley

Hi my names Ashley. I was assaulted about 3 and a half years ago and my ptsd has gotten a bit better but I feel like I can never be able to get physical with someone nor do I have the want to. Is this normal? I wasn’t raped but to me it felt like I was ( not the situation but the way I felt after). I understand that it was a traumatic event but I just don’t understand why it was if it wasn’t even rape ?