Hormones ?

Well im 9 weeks pregnant today & im the bitchest bitch on earth i became a shitty person and I honestly am trying not to. I give my husband a hard time sometimes, i feel ugly, i feel like I don't love nobody, my aunt died yesterday and I didn't even shed a tear until today and only one. not even my baby that's growing inside of me and that makes me feel horrible, i even thought of aborting and this was a planned pregnancy. I barely had sickness but my emotions been all over the place, before pregnancy i used to suffer from depression sometimes and anxiety, i guess it became stronger with this pregnancy and I dont even be sad like that, just angry at the world for no reason... please help i really try not to be like this but sometimes i cant hold it ... i wana love this baby and love everything about my pregnancy and husband but it seems like i cant for some reason.. i feel ungrateful because some ppl cant have kids and It was easy for me and im not appreciating it 😞