How do you make yourself feel better about have herpes?

I recent stopped seeing the guy who gave me hsv2 because he doesn’t treat me right & doesn’t care about me. We were seeing each other for a year before today. But I’m having problems with my self esteem because of this virus. I feel like I’m going to be alone forever & like I was the whole package but then he ruined me. I also feel like I didn’t deserve any of this because I was always genuine to him & was there for him for everything, unlike the other woman he probably messes around with. I just don’t understand how I could get this virus. He’s the 2nd guy I’ve had sex with & im so careful.

How do I feel better about myself & my situation? I got over the initial depression a few months ago but I still feel numb & in a lot of pain.