Really need a pick me up

Okay ladies,

This month really is upsetting me. My DH and I got married in October I went off BC in November which I had been on for 18 years. I figured it would take some time but 8 months. This month felt so different I got the darkest ovulation strip I had ever gotten and I felt crampy. I’m 9 DPO from when I got my positive opk and got a negative test this morning and it’s really hitting me. I am so crampy and my sense of smell is heightened. Last night had the worst headache and was so tired I really felt this was my month. I know I’m not out until AF shows up but just feeling so down right now. Has anyone gotten a negative 9 DPO and still been pregnant? Also why, why is it taking me so long is this normal?