Relationship Concerns & advice.

*possible trigger warning (mental health)

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Me & my boyfriend have been together for about 5 months now & in the beginning it was a lot of ups & downs & he was really hung up on his ex & would talk to her behind my back, lie to me about it, & hide it. It was so bad, that while we were quarantined together, at the beginning of our relationship, we needed to take a break from each other & we broke up because we didn’t think we were right for each other & he had some growing to do. About two weeks after that, we didn’t talk, until he suddenly hmu & we started to catch up again. i had some family issues that went down & he was the first person that i called, and he showed up & after that, that was the beginning of our relationship. from that point on, everything was so much better. we had amazing communication, we were open & honest with each other & we always spent time together. it felt like things were good, they were going amazing. we ended up moving in together about two- three months ago & in the beginning it was good, of course we are only 18 & this is both of our first real relationship so sometimes it’s very hard. lately it’s been very difficult. we’ve been having a lot of petty arguments & although we communicate very well, it’s very hard for me to talk to him sometimes. i’ve been very down & depressed lately & i have a history of suicidal tendencies & ideations & mental health & he doesn’t really understand all that because we’ve come from different backgrounds. i want to be able to talk to him, but everyday he always leaves to hang out with his friends & it gets to me. i’ve told him previously that it bothers me & makes me feel like he’s choosing them over me, but yet nothing has changed. today i went to the hospital because i was in horrible pain & was diagnosed with strep throat & i told him & he didn’t even show because he was out with friends. but when he came home, which was late which is everyday, he asked how i was feeling & then went to sleep. it hurt because i’ve been there for him every single time he’s been sick & yet he couldn’t put aside time to come to the hospital to see me. it’s just been very hard & i don’t know what to do at this point. there’s so much i feel we need to talk about & so much i want to get off my chest but i don’t know if maybe i’m overthinking it all or what. any options ? anything helps, thank you <3