My experience as a FTM

As a FTM I always dreamed I would have an amazing first pregnancy. In December when we found out I had horrible morning sickness, I was in tears at Christmas dinner with my in laws because I couldn't eat the food or play just dance with my niece.

Then covid came and ruined everyone's plans. Again I was in tears because I couldn't have the gender reveal I was looking forward too, I couldn't see my mum, our neighbours weren't helping by blasting music so loud I couldn't work and had to close my window on an extremely hot day.

At 28 weeks I was told I needed to take enoxaparin injections queue more tears.

Coupled with balancing my iron tablets with the revenge of morning sickness/nausea and dizziness there has been even more tears.

I feel bad for saying this but I've not enjoyed my 8 months. I know if the situation was different then sure I would of but with everything going on it's just been 💩

Mental health is important out of pregnancy as well as during and after and with 6 weeks to go (unless the big baby comes sooner) I have a call with a mental health midwife next week to talk and discuss!

Luckily I have a wonderful husband who has been there while I've had these episodes. And my parents came round to comfort me (TMI coming up) after I was sick while sitting in bed trying to work.

Please, if you feel how I do, down sometimes and just feeling bleh talk to someone, even if it is a complete stranger.