How do you get through this...

tldr: any tips to get through the hard times?

I’m 23, and a single mom to 18 month old twins. I was never really with their dad so I’ve been doing this alone even during my pregnancy. It’s been pretty challenging as you can imagine, I honestly don’t have much support. I have one friend that watches them on occasion but she lives an hour drive away. I do live with my mom who is also a single mother and two brothers. They rarely willingly watch them, and my mom doesn’t really believe in “breaks” because I signed up for this, so it was a bit difficult to get anyone to watch them, which I dont ask often anyways. I completely understand that. They are my responsibility but it still is hard..

The twins still wake up 4-5 times at night (breastfeed) and I’m trying to wean them but its not going so well. I think it’s affecting their teeth as well, and causing problems.My son has been struggling with his weight from day one, and they have a doctors appointment tomorrow and I know he’s underweight again... there’s been some times where he’s doing great but it’s been fluctuating ...I do feed him and everything but it seems like he’s allergic to a lot (dairy,wheat,eggs) and the other types of fat he doesn’t seem to like so it’s a challenge... and it’s reflecting in his skin as well (he has really dry skin/eczema) I’ve tried so many types of creams but he still seems to itch so much, he will even wake up itching at night which also interrupts his sleep.. I’m waiting to get a referral for a dermatologist but it’s so hard seeing him like this..

I’m in the process of learning how to code/ getting into it support because im good with tech, but it’s hard to get stuff done when they’re both up which is most of the time..

Honestly I feel alone, I don’t have many friends and having twins is a bit different as well... their dad barely helps and never helps physically... sorry for the rant I just feel a bit overwhelmed and like everything is getting a bit out of control...