I don’t know what to do anymore

Back story - we tried for over 2 years, found out I had cancer, I finish treatment soon, my cycle has returned and you’d think I’d be excited but I’m not.

I feel like my husband and I can’t get on the same page anymore and I know it’s been a lot on him with what I’ve gone through but it’s hard.

Then I let someone back in my life I had closed the door on almost a decade ago, and they reminded me why that door was closed.

I took a trip down virtual memory lane with some old pictures and writing and the rabbit hole is so deep I can’t see the top anymore. I’m just not happy. I’ve run out of people to try to talk to. I feel alone.