Ugh. I’m so down. I feel like my bf and his ex were more compatible. They grew up together. They had the same friends. They had pictures together. They were each other’s first loves. They both love gaming.

I’m the opposite and I hate dating when it’s not meaningful. He says he loves me but I’m just so terrified that I’m just a filler girl or something. He always comes to my house, I never go to him, so if we broke up today I’d feel empty going in my basement. I feel like he doesn’t have anything that’s connected to me in a meaningful way and it sucks so much. I hate not feeling like I’m special. I feel the constant need to compete with his ex relationship (she’s not in the picture) but I just feel like I’m so different and it’s driving me insane and making me super depressed. I have bad anxiety and I saw YouTube videos of her and she’s super skinny, positive, smart, and upbeat... I feel like an emotional depressed loaf compared to her.