Ughhh I hate this feeling let me explain a bit more of what I’m going trough in that way you can understand me better.

My first 11 weeks are been really tough from nausea, vomiting, dizziness and insomnia sometimes The only thing I can hold down is water or liquids.

I work for a costumer service company that the most important thing is the costumer service of course lol 😆 but when I started to develop all this symptoms I couldn’t go to work as happy as always since I will be talking to costumers about to vomit or I will stop the convo to go and vomit the first couple of weeks I was fine doing this but then I started to develop big time anxiety after every vomit session and it will take me longer to recover after the vomiting I will say it started to take me like 5 minutes to recover and then it went to almost 8 cause I will be having a panic attack right after and I will feel light headed just thinking I needed to go back there and keep taking to costumer when I felt like shit, I talked to my doctor they gave me medicine nothing change we changed it 3 times and by the 9 week my body was so depleted and I was so tired of the whole anxiety vomiting etc and costumers started to complaint about me taking to long to answer questions when in reality I was vomiting after excusing myself.

And the company I work for suggested a medical leave fully paid it won’t affect my maternity leave at all or wait a couple of weeks to see what they can do for me to make it easy on me but It could affect my payment since it will reduce the hours of working to make it easy for me and I panicked just to think I needed to wait a couple of weeks with the same symptoms and costumers complaining and that point I was and emotional mess, I will forget things etc always high on anxiety and took the leave for 8 weeks.... but now I feel like a failure even tho I know is paid and I will have my job back I feel like my boss will think less of me for not put up with this and keep going, idk the reason why I took the leave is because I haven been ttc for years and I’m scare something will happen to my baby with the stress and High anxiety... but I still feel mediocre and like a failure or maybe are the hormones that are playing horrible tricks on me.... I still have all the symptoms and I’m home so I’m ok puking everywhere and staying the whole day in bed but I feel bad about myself and not been able to put it up with this symptoms at work thanks for reading I needed to vent