Need to vent

*English is not my first language*

So, let me start my story from that fact that my parents tried to raise me a “good” girl, meanwhile telling me boys and parties can wait, studies and school first and so on... you know how it goes.

That means my partying phase was like half a year long when I was an exchange student abroad and pretty much it. I finished university last year (I am 23 now), accidentally met the love of my life and now I am pregnant and due August.

I do love my partner, he is my first.

The thing is... Don’t get me wrong please... I feel like I am missing out on something in my life.

My partner has been having partying phase since 15, relationships, girls, fun... And then I guess, he found me and now tells me he wants to settle down.

I am okay with that, fully supporting... But still, the feeling like I didn’t get a full experience is eating my insides... Not only sexual experience, but like meeting people in general and going out, you know what I mean...

I feel like everything happened too fast...

don’t know what to say more.

Just please, share your experience if you relate