I feel like crap when he doesn't reply

Okay so I have only ever been in one relationship and been single for almost 2 years now.

Went on dates here and there, but often get ghosted. I mean, I don't expect every date to go well but still it makes me feel like crap when they do. Or when you see someone you were talking for weeks for suddenly change their attitude, losing interest.

The past 3 months or so, because of quarantine, I actually felt SO MUCH better about myself because I don't have guys to talk to and just focusing on myself.

Last week I started talking to this guy, everything went well. But there's always this fear in the back of my mind that I'm gonna get ghosted again. It doesn't make me feel good and part of me just wants to cut it all off before he ghosts me again.

I'm scared to jump into the dating pool again, but at the same time how can I find someone to settle down with if I'm scared like this. What should I do??