Getting back out there ?

so this won’t be the first time I’ve met someone from a dating app. I’ve been talking to him for an 3 months now granted it’s over snap so a good amount of the days we barely actually talked.

I have high anxiety and it’s very all over the place. It kinda comes in episodes or just at the randomest times.

I do wanna meet him but 1. I’m nervous ab how we would get along. It’s a hit or miss if I’m outgoing or introverted truly depending if I’m just “off” or not and currently the past weeks I’ve been off.

Also the big reason is that I was raped recently and since been sexually assaulted by the same person a couple times more. (Obviously sense I’m posting in this group)

I don’t honestly know how I’m going to react w meeting him. If I knew I was probably going to freak I’d just not go or hold it off. But it’s the part where I’m trying to keep my life moving as normally as possible. Where maybe I’ll be fine once I get there , or maybe I won’t.

Obviously I’m meeting in a public place but if I’m still nervous ab that then Ik when we hang it’ll be awkward cuz I won’t talk....

Maybe I’m just nervous rn cuz I’m tired and it’s late at night. Idk.

If someone is getting back out there, how did you know you were ready or did you just go for it? Ik everyone has a different method of dealing with things.

AS for covid

My state is basically back up and running and has declining cases plus he’s been quarantined and there’s a big possibility I already got it by now back in December / January