Venting

I'm not doing good mentally. And I think I might be bipolar. I have these episodes where I am good I am excited and I am hopefull. Where i cant stop talking. Sometimes I have normal days. And then a whole hurricane hits. And I cant stop my thoughts, my insecurites, my suicidal thoughts, my self harming thoughts. I want help. I need help.

I want to get better. I just need someone to tell me at this moment. That I am going to be okay.... any advice?

I dont have social media. My husband hardly compliments me. I just need some uplifting