My faith at age 26..

Last week I decided to reach out to a few churches in my area to help me connect with God more. I asked if they had women Bible studies, groups around my age that gather together for events, and other involvement I can get into to bring me closer to God. The other day this lady called me and we talked for about 10 minutes. The conversation was helpful but I felt off. I felt weird. I felt put of place. I felt odd. I questioned myself do I really need God to bring me a man? Do I need Him to better my life spiritually? Do I need Him to guide me through life even though I already love myself and my life?

The answer to these questions is Yes I need God in my life. Yes I have a great life. I have a good job. I am financially stable. I have a great apartment. I have a vehicle. I travel. I buy things I want. But I do NOT have a man. A man I want to call husband one day. A man I want to have children with. A man to grow with. A man to always be there. A man to be in love with. A man who I trust completely. Not just A man. I want THE man that God knows will be there through the rough times as well as the good times. That will never give up on us. That will fight for us. That will continue to grow and support each other.

I am not saying the only reason I want to be closer to God is to find a man. That is only one part of it but I need to be closer to God for myself. To be able to feel the connection while praying, gathering in church, and talking to others about God. I have always believed but been on and off with connecting with God.

I am ready for this new step in my life even though it is uncomfortable right now.