Advice ?

I can’t really explain how I feel but I pray that God knows my heart and how broken it is because I can’t put into words my confusion, my hurt, my frustration, I’m just tired of being told that x,y, and z is wrong with me because I don’t even understand how to fully fix them all..😔 and I see all these powerful women and men just with their heads up and no worries. I’m trying but I don’t have the biggest faith unfortunately. I wish I could grow up and be like them, walk like Jesus.