Sexual abuse

Alot of my memory from when I was a child has just been blank....like anything before 7 I don't remember. Except for bits and pieces like going to school and stuff like that.

I've always thought that something happened to me. But I didn't uk have any memory until recently.

It was a few months ago I just had a flashback of just being in a room with someone.

Then a few days ago I started remembering more... someone putting their fingers inside of my pants and touching me while I was playing with a teddy bear .A man standing in front of me unzipping his pants...

I can't even remember his face.

And it makes me feel so sick Everytime I think about it. Which is all the time.

I feel nervous, scared and anxious all the time now. And I just keep remembering more and more. I couldnt even sleep last night because I kept getting flashback and also because I didn't want to get anymore so I was scared to fall asleep.

I just want to know how I can cope with the memories that are coming back?

I tried distracting myself but it doesn't work.

Am also losing my appetite everything I eat just makes me feel sick.

I just feel so disgusted and scared.