Hate my postpartum body

I know this is small potatoes in the grand scheme of things but I am really struggling. I HATE my body right now. I know I’m supposed to give myself grace and time but I’m just depressed. I gained 35 pounds with my first and then worked my ass off to lose it and then some. I have continued my healthy lifestyle and really wanted to gain less this time around. I continued working out during pregnancy, through month 8, and making healthy food choices but I gained the same 35 lbs I did with my first when I didn’t move ever and ate whatever I wanted. Now I’m 10 weeks postpartum. I’ve been working out since 2 weeks postpartum - I started really slow with some light yoga and then started officially working out once I was cleared for exercise. I still have 20 pounds to lose and it’s coming off sooooo slow. I hate the spare tire, I cringe whenever I see a picture of myself, nothing fits, and I just hate the way I look. I love my baby and he’s worth it all but I’m just depressed and struggling.