Work love?

Hi! I would like to make an anonymous post.

I have been married for 5 years and I have had a complicated relationship with my husband due to marrying at an early age.

Throughout our relationship there has been a lot of manipulation, lying, and cheating on his behalf. I won’t say that I was perfect but the relationship was overwhelming and toxic. We have a 2 year old daughter, and I have stayed multiple times for the sake of our daughter. However, I recently obtained a position that allowed me to be fully financially independent, so I decided to pack my things and move with my daughter.

During the process, I became attached to someone I work with. Nothing has ever happened between us but I did create feelings. I am not sure if I created this feelings due to me being vulnerable emotionally due to a toxic marriage or because there’s genuinely a connection between this person and I.

Recently, the person I work with called me intoxicated asking me how I feel about them and I was honest with them and asked what they felt in return. They expressed that they see me in having more than a friendship but didn’t necessarily tell me how.

I unfortunately vented to my exhusband about this and expressed that I had feelings for this person I work with.

My exhusband somehow found the number to the person I work with to clarify what exactly they wanted from me. He did this behind my back. Thereafter, the person I work with texted me that they didn’t want to talk to me anymore.

I called my ex furiously by taking the chance I had to clarify things with that person because I knew they were intoxicated when they expressed themselves to me.

My ex told me that the person told him that he didn’t want anything from me and that he strictly respected me and wanted nothing further.

I then called my boss and told them I was quitting my job because I feel weird about working with someone I have feelings for whatever reason.

I let my colleague known and told me he doesn’t want me to quit because of the potential I have in the company we work.

I have told my ex that I was wrong for even venting to him and that I am cutting all ties with him as a friend and only seeing him when we are exchanging our daughter.

My boss told me that she is not accepting my resignation due to me being emotional at the moment I called. However, I don’t know if I should truly leave or stay although it may be uncomfortable.

Yo clarify** the person I work with is a superior of mine.

Should I stay or leave positions?