I’m just not sure how I should feel and that’s why I’m coming on here. I’ve dreamed about getting married for a long time. I’ve always wanted a wedding and to get proposed to but it seems that dream will never come true. I have been with my husband for almost four years and got married on September 4th of this year. The whole time leading up to the wedding I felt as if I couldn’t even talk about it, because he didn’t show the least bit of excitement... I honestly felt stupid for being excited even though it was a small courthouse wedding with just us our son and our witnesses. We were rushed into this wedding due to him joining the military. I told him not to marry me if the only reason is the military... yet he convinced me otherwise that that was not the only reason.. we were unable to tell my parents due to them not liking him at all and they would not approve. We did agree that we were going to have a wedding ceremony to get our vowels renewed and invite everyone including my family to that... even after our wedding I told everyone I could that we got married.. I was excited... I was proud to have him as my husband.. him on the other hand did not tell anyone... his family wouldn’t have cared they all even really like me.. I just feel like he acts as if we aren’t even married and I guess it just hurts..

Even tonight he asked me what I was typing on here. I told him I didn’t want to talk about it because I knew he would get mad at me.. he insisted he wouldn’t get mad at me and he would talk to me about it.. I told him how I am hurt by him not telling anyone and he got mad at me 😔 now I am on the couch for tonight... my feelings are always so invalid to him...