Not sure how I feel about it..

Trivial but its been on my mind.

My husband and I haven't always had a good relationship. Most days even still it's hit or miss. We've been together for 10 years through a lot of ups and downs.

The down parts of our relationship has always been him calling me names. In particular "fat". Mind you, when we 1st met and got together...I was a size 14...and now a size 24 about 300 lbs. Mental health has played a big roll as I've recently had a memory of a childhood trauma of sexual abuse.

He though has always weighed around 230. He's built like a brick shit house. Not muscle bound or cut up unless he flexes and then it's like BAM!

Over the past year, he has gotten on medication to help with his own mental health. (Depression and anxiety/anger) it has helped tremendously....but there's still times that it presents itself. But I'm proud of him for even making that step.

The medication has caused him to gain weight. I'm talking like, he stepped on the scale tonight and it said 274.8... which to me still isn't big...but it is. I kind of chuckled and thought.. well, karma is a bitter bitch isn't it.

I feel bad because I know what its like to struggle and watch that number rise. And how awful he feels ( because I do too)

I guess part of me hasn't healed from what he's said so I'm the bitter bitch. 🤷‍♀️