My baby is almost a year old now and since he was born I've really been having a hard time dealing with the giant change in my life, and I'm still having a hard time. I miss still living with my parents. I still had responsibilities because I had a job and helped them pay their bills and whatever but that was pretty much all. I miss just sitting in my room by myself and staying up all night doing nothing. Now I always have my boyfriend around and I can't stay up all night. Unless it's the baby keeping me up. I love my baby, don't get me wrong. It's just sometimes I miss not having the extra responsibilities and I get so overwhelmed with how much things have changed. I've always been a person who had a hard time dealing with change. Plus the fact that I got pregnant almost immediately after moving in with my boyfriend. I didn't have time to adapt to not living with my parents before I had to deal with another change, and I was not ready for either of them. I wasn't emotionally ready to move out of my parents house at all and I honestly wish I could have waited. And I definitely wasn't ready for a baby. Btw, I considered all my options when I was pregnant. After hearing so many horror stories about the adoption/foster system, I ruled out that option. I didn't want to put my baby through that. I was going to have an abortion, but I ended up canceling my appointment because I just couldn't go through with it. So I kept him, and I'm glad I did, because he's given me reason to better myself and I love him more than anything in this world. I just wish I would've had more time to cope with one change before I made another one. Plus the fact that he was born a couple weeks after moving out of our first apartment into a new one... it's all just so overwhelming. I just wish I could go back every once in a while to when I was 17/18 and living at home with little responsibility and so much time to do whatever I wanted. Does anyone else feel like this sometimes? I feel awful for it. And it's a deep feeling of just wishing I could go back, like an overwhelming feeling that kinda nags at you and won't leave you alone. How do I deal with this? Does this feeling ever go away or fade? Thanks in advance for any comments ❤