Anyone ever been through this?

Alright ladies, this is something that’s been bothering me and I just want to see if anyone else has ever gone through something like this.

I am happily married, and have been for 3 years. We’ve been together 5 years. He is literally my soul mate and I love him so much!

When I was in college though, I had a boyfriend who I treated like shit. I shouldn’t have dated anyone at that time because mentally I was just unstable. I ended things with him in not the best way and we left off on a really bad note. I ended up getting lots of help after that relationship through therapy and ended up meeting my husband and now all is well and like I said, I’m happy.

Well, last night I had a dream that I went to my ex from college’s house and saw his family again and just like apologized to all of them and worked things out. Now today I can’t stop thinking about my ex. Not in a romantic way, just in an I feel bad way.

I do wish I could get closure but I’ll probably never reach out to him. I don’t even have his number so I would have no way, plus idk how much good could come from that 6 years later.

I guess I’m just asking if anyone else has ever experienced something similar and how did you handle it?