I need help - rape

Idk what else to do right now. I just broke up w my boyfriend last night, and I just feel disgusting. The first time we had sex (it was my first time), I said no, but he forced me to anyways and refused to wear a condom. I thought I was in love at the time, even though we weren’t even officially together, and so I just made excuses for him to myself and convinced myself that it wasn’t rape. Turns out he’s been cheating me on this whole time too, which he denied and always called me an awful person for accusing him. Now that I’m on the other side of this, I’m horrified by what he did to me and I know that what happened was rape—he even admitted to it over snap (which I took pictures of) before we called each other. He always refused to wear a condom too, and I literally had to go behind my parents’ back and buy birth control and deal with the side effects just so he could be more “comfortable.”

I guess at this point, I just want to know what I can legally do. The way things ended, I’m no longer concerned about “ruining his career or life,” he knew exactly what he was doing and I’m going to have to live with this for the rest of my life. I’m only 17, is there any way I could report him to police without my parents knowing or finding out (I know I should tell them, but I can’t right now, and I know that honestly they would ruin my life). I think I’m going to report him to Safe2Say. Part of me is also scared because I don’t have proof of any of this other than those texts, and I know that victims aren’t really believed without proof.

I just need help right now🥺