Taking a break from TTC after my fifth miscarriage, most recent ectopic💔

My hubby and I have to wait three months to try again after having the methotrexate shot two weeks ago. Today my levels were confirmed negative <1. I’ve hit a point in this journey of TTC, I don’t know when you realize enough is enough. I’m giving this three month break as time to work on myself mentally and dieting by eliminating carbs in hopes my next pregnancy will be successful. I have a follow up call with my reproductive endocrinologist next week and I have a feeling she is going to want laparoscopic surgery to check for endometriosis or PID which I’d rather have done to just rule out to prevent another heartbreak.

Five pregnancies lost in a year...reality hits me especially this time of year. It was last year at this time I was having a D&C at ten weeks. Fall used to be my favorite season, now it’s just a reminder of being robbed of pregnancy joy.

I try to preoccupy myself with diy projects, baking, etc to help get me through the holiday season and it helps. But losing five pregnancies is always in the back of my mind daily. The ectopic was by far the scariest pregnancy, thankfully I was monitored very early on so it never became a problem but I’m grateful for the team of doctors and nurses that saved my life.

I’ll be using the next few months for much needed relaxation, strength, and finding myself again♥️ this is a group no one wants to be a part of but I’m thankful for all of you ladies this past year!