Im exhausted (Long read)

Ive been with my boyfriend since 2017, we have our son in 2019 and our daughter in early 2020. After having our son in 2019 he moved us to Fl from Va to be with his family. I was left isolated in a apartment all day everyday. He bounced around jobs, we couldnt afford our bills, we could barley put food on the table, but he refused to let me get a job. While living in Fl he picked up a smoking habbit 🍁 and spent the time he wasnt working outside drinking and smoking with friends. I cooked, i cleaned and i cared for our son alone. I became very depressed and lonely. Our relationship was starting to crack after having our son then with the move it became worse. We ended up back in Va in July living in a camper in my moms yard. We fought about me getting a job even though neither one of us had a job. Finally i was 'allowed' to get a job so I started working in early August with my sister and in mid September he found a job. After a couple of months his company moved out of Va and he decided to move to Nc to continue working with the company. My son and i stayed in Va so he could find a place to live and so i could have my daughter in Va with my family. A week after having my daughter i packed up what i could and moved to Nc with our kids. Ive been here since early May. He works monday-friday, i stay at home with the kids. After having my daughter i had really bad PPD, and when i would talk to him about how i needed help he would tell him to 'get over it' and it was 'all in my head'. I struggled in silence until i couldnt no more, i begged my mom to take my daughter for a period of time so i could get some help. I wasnt able to get help because he was to busy to watch our son. After getting our daughter back nothing changed, i was better with her and less angry but he still doesn't help on days im burnt out. I cook, i clean, i take care of the animals and kids. I do all the laundry, clean litter boxes, and take the dogs out. I do everything no matter how tired i am or burnt out i am, i always take care of everything. Even when i was working i would get up with our son at night, and do everything. When i ask for help its a fight or an excuse. He works Monday-friday and i appreciate all that he does for us but he also makes dishes, and laundry, he also uses the bathroom and creats dirt why should i be the only one cleaning and caring for everything. I ask him to do two things mow and haul trash, he hasnt mowed since june and he hid all the trash bags under a pile of wood in the back yard. When hes not working hes smoking, gaming, or something else. Ive left the house 3 times since May. Im lonely, im depressed and im resentful. I stopped wearing my engagement ring, ive even told him i no longer want to marry him. When i try to talk to him about how i feel he always says the same thing 'go make friends'. I told him something has to change in our relationship or it isnt going to last. I asked him to do a date night once or twice a month and nothing has happened. I wanted to go to a local coffee shop with him and let his dad watch the kids for an hour or so, so we could have time together. We made the plans but the day of he made other plans and never mentioned the coffee shop. He spent all of my stimulus money, when i wanted to use it for our kids. I was only allowed to use $115 for our kids. The other night both kids decided to wake up at 2am and scream. I got our daughter first since she is in our room i changed her and fed her, i thought my boyfriend would get our son but he just laid in bed complaining. After laying her down i tended to our son. I finally got to lay back down around 4am and was back up at 6am with our daughter and to take the dogs out. When i asked him why he didnt get up to help he said 'because i had to work, if you lose an hour of sleep you get to sleep in or take a nap.' I dont get to sleep in, and nap time for the kids is time for me to scrub the bathroom or clean litter boxs or fold laundry. Im exhausted, im depressed , i feel so alone and isolated. my family tells me to leave and come home,but i literally have nothing. no car, no job, no place to live and no money. Every time i get extra money for our kids he spends it, his dad gave me $100 for cleaning his apartment and ive had to hide it just so i can go to lunch with my sister while we are in va for halloween. I just dont know what to do anymore..this isnt who i am this isnt the life i want for my kids or myself.