Mom guilt

So I've been super excited about dressing my 17 month old up for Halloween and taking him trick-or-treating for the first time this year and it was completely ruined.

He was super cranky. And getting him ready took longer than expected..I originally thought dinner first which is usually at 6...I figured everything would go smoothly boy was I wrong.

Plus me and his father got into an argument (not in front of him) and he ended up not showing up. He got out of work early and everything to come with us and instead didn't.

And on top of all that it starts raining right as we leave to go to some neighborhoods that were actually celebrating this year.

So after everything, we didn't end up doing trick-or-treating and just went home. I'm so bummed out and I feel so bad for my son.

I know I'm reality he doesn't even understand or know but in my heart I feel like I let him down and ruined his Halloween. I'm currently in bed alone crying. I feel such mom guilt right now....😭