Losing hope

I think I’m really losing hope on getting pregnant. This morning I woke up feeling like maybe having babies is for me or in my cards in life. Maybe God has other plans for me and I feel like being a mother isn’t one one them. I’m sorry to come on here and vent but that’s how I’m feeling. Every month I become optimistic on my chances but as the months and the same symptoms come about and it’s another fail. For 5 years I’ve been on this roller coaster and all I have to show for it are tears and frustration. I just come to terms with the fact that motherhood is not for me 😢😢😞 and I trying not to be down or depressed about it. I can’t get down about something out of my hands but it sucks.