I don't know if I should move on from my ex or not, help? ☹️

my ex and I broke up amicably/mutually about 2 weeks ago. long story short he goes to a strict military academy and they haven't been able to leave (or have visitors) since July and we only started dating at the beginning of June. we won't be able to see eachother again until Christmas. I'm kicking myself bc I was too needy/pressured him too much when he was doing his best to balance me with his academics, military obligations and D1 sport. i know it's not entirely my fault but I feel like most of it was, and I don't think I realized what I had until he was gone. I had super strong feelings for him but I think I'm realizing that I'm in love with him now. he was always super open about wanting to get serious with me in the future (we're 20 and 21 lol) but we both felt like we had never felt a connection like the one we had. i don't know if either of us wanted to break up and both of us said we still had feelings for each other, but he said he was unhappy and feeling hopeless about us. we decided that we would stay "close" as "friends" and still text/call. he said he wanted to continue to build a connection and grow together, which he said will allow us to see if we made a mistake (in breaking up). he said there's no restrictions to the friendship (as far as it just being strictly platonic). it's only been 2 weeks, but I know I made a mistake. I've been broken up with after a 5 year relationship but still didn't feel this strongly about wanting to get back together. I want him back so badly. we've been snapping every day and he's facetimed me 4-5 times (for 5-10 min each) since we broke up 2 weeks ago, I've prob called the same amount and yesterday we talked for 30 minutes. we just joked around and teased each other like normal, nothing serious. we don't really text anymore. we haven't talked about the break up since it happened. he hasn't asked for his stuff back. i'm praying we can see each other over Christmas and see if the spark is still there, and I'm hoping we start to talk more. I really don't know if I should move on or not because we left things kinda open but the circumstances are so shitty. my heart tells me to fight for us but I'm so scared of getting hurt, I'm scared he won't feel the same way. I'd really appreciate any advice 💓