TTC has not been enjoyable at all

I always thought it was going to be some magical journey for my partner and I to have a child. Never in a million years did I think I would struggle this much with just trying to conceive our first. I always wanted to have a big family and now I’m hoping I’ll be lucky enough to have one. It’s been almost four years and I’m tired of getting test that look like this. It is emotionally draining each month and unfortunately I don’t have that good of a support system, they don’t understand it and throw it back in my face like I’m the problem. I just wish it was easier for some people to get and stay pregnant, I’ve wanted to be a mom for so long now.